Friday, July 31, 2009

Losing Tread And Keeping Up

When, if ever, will I learn to keep trusting God? As I said the other day on Facebook, my faith was not as much shaken as it was shocked. Everything going on. No ship coming in. Then we lose a tire on the car. I was "beside myself", and when you're as fat as I am that's saying a lot.

But God provided. We were able to find a used tire, mounted, for a reasonable price and through the financial help of a friend we're able to almost make "ends meet". Also, despite my COBRA management company saying I would "most likely" have a two-week lapse in my insurance, my insurance officially was confirmed today. So I have insurance.

It appears that, during the Relay for Life, I managed to pull a ligament in my leg... right behind me knee. I probably actually did it climbing up or down the hill rather than on one of my laps. It's feeling much better today. I'm not even using my cane. If I move it the "wrong way" I scream. But otherwise it's just fine.

This was a hard week. It felt like things kept piling up. But that's what things do. That's what life does. It piles up. Things happen, and continue to happen, no matter what else is going on. Sometimes the happenings are big. Sometimes they're small. No matter their size, they continue. The point, I guess, is to deal with them as they come in the best manner we can; and to realize that when they're too big for us, God is there to help out.

"I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness, the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed. I remember it all—oh, how well I remember— the feeling of hitting the bottom. But there's one other thing I remember, and remembering, I keep a grip on hope: God's loyal love couldn't have run out,his merciful love couldn't have dried up. They're created new every morning. How great your faithfulness! I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over). He's all I've got left." Lamentations 3:19-24 (The Message)

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