Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Do they sell pride on

I'm sorry, and really ashamed, to do this. But we need help. Financially and, next week, physically (with some cleaning and a couple of meals). Kristin is hurting emotionally right now and my mind is overwrought while my pain has really increased, due to a fall last night.

If you can help, there's a link over to the right hand side and my email is

I'm so tired of asking for help. I know God would just like me to learn more humility. I don't know if I can be much more humble.

Here's what you down't know about me: I'm shy. I'm terrified of large groups of people. I hate being weak.

Watching my wife hurt... Asking for financial help... Not being able to lift a trash bag or walk my dog... It's all just piling on top of me today. There are moments, usually they last a few days, where I just wish the doctors had been correct in their original time-line for my cancer. I'm in the middle of one now.

"'You're my servant, serving on my side. I've picked you. I haven't dropped you.' Don't panic. I'm with you. There's no need to fear for I'm your God. I'll give you strength. I'll help you. I'll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you." Isaiah 41:10b The Message

Please know that I'm finding ways to choose joy and to laugh. It's just harder and, sometimes, it's a matter of, "Fake it 'til you make it." 

I'm going to a movie tonight. That I have gift cards for. Probably alone, but at least I'll be out of the house.

I'm rambling and using "I'm" a lot.

Today I'm incredibly thankful for my family, my friends (especially Bob today), the roof God has put over our head and one more day with my beautiful wife who's tears, right now, are so heavy on my heart. But I am thankful.

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